fasting...erk!

today, as in saturday 20092008, my family and i went to JALAN TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN. a.k.a JALAN TAR. so, we went to look for baju raya, as raya is only like 10 days away!!we arrived around 4pm.
its crazy there, it was quite packed, and the stalls were so close to one another. it was crazy. and the clothes were so freaking gorgeous! i love it. although i bought nothing.

an hour later, i was feeling dizzy. i didnt get much sleep the night before. and i ate so little for sahur. ive been that way before, feeling dizzy and seeing stars. at first i thought i could handle it. i tried to stay and be strong. but after every other minute i had to stop and squat down. i felt my tongue went numb. and i was seeing stars. i know my mom was getting worried. i could feel blood was draining from my face and i was pale. i felt my body was lighter and i was like "terhuyung hayang". then i really couldnt take it. i squated down, and my brother bought me a drink. i had to break my fast. drinking an air mata kucing in front of the sea of muslim. but i couldnt care less. i was more worried of my health than what other people think of me. i drank the water. papa suggested that i go and rest in the car while dahlia, oley and ibu continue shooping.

so as we walked back to the car i had to stop a couple of times. and papa was holding my hand the entire time, i was leaning against him. i really thought i would passed out in the middle of the road. when i had to stop while we walked back to the car, i was shaking. in the car, i had some rest and papa was mengaji Qor'an while waiting for the others. then we break our fast, --well only ibu and papa did, as dahlia couldnt and oley didnt fast-- at mok kin's house at taman melawati. we hang out til around 12. dahlia,oley and the other kids went out for a drink. while the fathers were watching football and the mothers and i were gossipping at the kitchen table. they went out around an hour or two, they were back home around 10+. so, around 12, andy flop poppy came with his family. it was our cue to say goodbyes. we went to see abg ros and the family near ampang putri hospital. we went our separate ways around 145. and reached home around 205.

now 4am, im still not asleep.planning to sleep after sahur. n have a good rest as tmr, im going to pkns to shop again.

til then.
-s.