the ex files.

051108,
i went to kfc with my sister around 11 pm. initially i didn't want to go, but i knew she was tired, so i offered to drive only, so she was the one who went inside the kfc. [i'm sorry, baby]. i waited in the car, doing nothing. and when she came back, she told me we had to wait for 10 minutes. so, we went to Hong Leong Bank nearby. as papa asked her to deposit a cheque. then, i drove around the block to get back to the kfc. on the way back to the kfc, i saw 2 guys were hanging out at a parked car at the roadside.. the guy who was facing me ( the incoming cars) looked vaguely fimiliar. it was dark, so i didnt see his face clearly. me and dahlia stopped talking for a while. then i said his name. i wasnt sure at first but then after i said it, dahlia confirmed it was him. dahlia said she recognized him but couldnt remember his name.

i was surprised actually. well, i shouldnt be as he is still staying in the same area as i am. but still, i was. its been around 3 years since i last saw him and 5 years since we broke up. i hoped he didnt notice me as i was looking at my worst. i dont need to impress him, but whenever we meet an ex, we would like to make sure we look good, as if the good appearance would stated out that "IM BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU!", you know? i always thought that he was my first love. but he's more like my first puppy love. we didnt even last that long. not even a year.

at the sight of him, my heart didnt beat any faster. i didnt have butterflies in my stomach. and of course he didnt look his best. sort of "serabai". i was like "oh, its him" thats all. i thought after years of not seeing him, maybe at the sight of him would be much different than what i felt that night. but i guess, i am better off without him. i told my current boyf that if you're over your ex, you wouldn't feel a thing towards him or her. u neither hate him or her nor you love him or her. and when you meet him or her, you don't feel anything anymore. i guess, i was right.. ;)