forgiveness

forgiveness was never a meaningful word for me. i always ask for forgiveness and i assumed people forgave me.
then there was a day when the words "i forgave you" change my life. i am not proud of what i did, in fact, i am ashamed of it. it was a terrible thing i did.in my whole life, I've never cried when i asked for someone's forgiveness, except well my boyfriend. but i've never cried whenever i asked for my family's forgiveness, yeah i took them for granted, coz i know no matter what i will always have them.
no matter what i've done, they will accept me back. i know that. and i was so sure that they would never find out about my activities, and none of the people i trust will ever betrayed me.. and yet i was wrong. one of the people that could be "TRUSTED" betrayed me and told my family bout everything. ever since that day, it was a struggle. im trying to move on and start a new life.
when i asked my parents for their forgiveness, it was the first time i cried while asking for forgiveness and when my dad said he forgave me,i cried even harder. it was like a soap opera where everyone was crying. on that very day, i promised myself that i will succeed, i will make my parents proud, i will repay their good deeds. i love them so fucking much. they are my everything, my heart and soul, my lungs. that day changed my life, my decisions.
when having a hard day, a hard week, or month, and when u think that no one is around to be there, just remember no matter what, ur family will always be there. no matter how busy they are, no matter how worse their problems are compare to yours, they will always make time for you. they will always be there. all you need to do is reach out for them, and they will be there. family is everything even when u feel they dun have time or they dont love you. and never take them for granted, coz they are special. if you think you can never talk to others, you can always turn to your mother, she is the most understanding person in your life, and no one, trust me, no one can ever beat a mother's love. her love is one of a kind.


i love you,ibu papa, you guys are the best.
love,
sarah.